sorry we havent posted in a while. my aunt found out i was anorexic and stuck me in the hospital for two freakin months. pissed off. but im back and still not satisfied with my fat 100 pound body. im so freakin fat because of the hospital. im cutting back twice as much and might start binging too. thank for all the support guys =)

im still wishing to be about 30 lbs lighter. i ran away from home for about 4 hours and was planning for it to be much longer, but my MOTHER found me again. im so pissed off at her, she makes me eat all the time. I HATE IT!! i want to die.

today was the worst day of my life. My mom forced me to eat a a whole bowl of pasta, she watched me until i finished. I did go to the bathroom to puke, but my best friend told my mother. Now she won't let me leave the house at all. I just want to stay at 90 pounds, but she's being a bitch